I feel like I haven’t taken a photograph that I’m instantly and completely 100% in love with in a long time. It’s sort of bumming me out. I mean, this is what I dream of doing for the rest of my life and right now I just feel so bleh about it. I keep blaming it on the weather. I know that’s just an excuse and I just have to get back out there and fall in love with photography all over again. I’m kinda hoping this digital photography class I’m taking right now in school is going to help spur that action, also combined with spring (which is hopefully around the corner).
Here’s a “cosmetic studio portrait” of my best friend Jacqueline that I took for the class. I’m not completely sold…
On another random side note, seeing people my age around where I live garnering fame and success before they even graduate makes me feel a bit anxious about what I’m doing with myself and my life right now. I mean my “peers” are finding themselves internationally published, accepted to the top schools in the world, signed to major record labels, winning awards all over the nation and what am I doing?! Nothing too important. I feel like I’m having a mid-life crisis at 18. This is just sad.
Maybe right now its just one of those nights where I’m kinda bummin’ and need to just get some sleep, but alas I can’t do that because I still have more homework to finish. I sort of just want this year to be over, so I can graduate and move on. Although I have mixed feelings about that too. But that’s a tale for another day. For now I’ll stop rambling and get to finishing my work with hopes to get some shut-eye before “dark-o-clock” as a favorite teacher of mine (cough, Ms. Gesin, cough) likes to call it.
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